All this while I have been searching for something to trigger my passion and my obsession. I have found it but it is not love or something people normally obsessed about.
but I like it and love it in my own sense.
I am obsessed with Manga.
To the extent that I refuse to care about anything else but reading it.
I neglect my meal, my studies, my sleep, my rest, my bath and even my prayer.
I disregard anything my parents said and continued to loose myself in the fairy tale world of manga.
Regardless of anything being said, I stubbornly convince myself that the manga obsession is okay and I am not affected by it.
It takes me awhile to realize; and only after I have done reading most of it that I realize how miserable my condition is.
I started experiencing massive headache, my appetite degrade, I become nausea whenever I stand up too long and my face is glisten with sweat and oil.
I look horrible and feel the same. I feel like I am in a big,sticky mess I created.
and I need to change and grab hold on my life and took control.
I also learn that what obsession can do to one's life.
but believe it or not I did not completely give up that obsession. I still am obsess with manga.
but I learn to control the obsession. The experience getting caught up in that big, sticky mess become a harsh reminder for me.
In case you are wondering why on earth I still kept that obsession is that. I cannot let go of it. It had become one with me.
Although I was badly affected by manga obsession, I still learn something from reading it just like when you read any books.
I fall in love with the characters
I learn about other cultures
I read about some heart warming motivation
I watch as the hero or heroin refuse to give up and fight till the end
I observe how people love each other, make friends, fight and overcome their fears
I experience events I have never experience
thus, no matter what I refuse to let this obsession go for there is a part of me that will not be the same if I had not had this obsession.
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